This is a page I though I would never get to write in my life, ever. I woke today, with a clear mind and happy heart. Why and how you might ask? I would like to say my life has made a turnaround since I started on what ever this road is a few years ago.
But the reality is it most of “life” or my environment is pretty much the same. What has changed, is me. My outlook, the way I look at people and what being me means to, well, me really. I have a tendency, as I’m sure lots of people do, to oversell how difficult things are which should be easy to grasp and do.
Take the happy feeling which showed up in my life in the present. In my minds eye, this used to be this daunting massive unfocused and unpredictable thing that would just always be out there and out of reach. Think what changed it all was a realisation about how to get to it. It is about just accepting that life is truly amazing.
For a long as I can remember, I was searching to “be” happy. Instead of just “accepting” happiness. What is the difference? Well, happiness truthfully is an inside job. It is not something you need to become first. It’s just there. I had to come to terms with the idea that it is okay for me to want this for myself. Without sounding selfish or self-serving about it.