For years, I've gone through this process of using the end of the year to reflect about what my plan was and how much of it I got done. There use to be this list. Rigid things that had to get done. Some of them fun, others not so much. But all things that had to get done. I kept score of how much I failed in life to accomplish. How much others accomplished. That is what we all need to do each new year, right? Make a list of things, see what gets done. It sucked the soul out of it.
A first principle is a basic, foundational, self-evident proposition or assumption that cannot be deduced from any other proposition or assumption.
As of late, I have this habit of looking at the greater message the pictures on my phone tells. Where it has been the last few days, weeks and months. What story does it tell and how can I improve it. Who are in them, what is busy happening, where were they taken and how often does the environment change. Is it telling a story which is improving, staying the same or deteriorating? Are there new "actors" in them than a year ago or are the characters the same? How many are "good guys" in the story and what role do all the others fill in the story.
Some of my own pictures of late includes what can only be described as being in the presence of giants. Of people so amazing in their thinking and personality that they can only be seen as giants. Of mountains so big and vast they humble you, and yet at the same time, open your heart and mind to how big life can and should be. Of personalities so inspiring, you can't help but be influenced by them.
It is an essential part of life, to be reminded of the small space we occupy in the world. It is the only way you will know, have the drive and urge to make life as big as possible. That your protected world you create in your everyday life is not the flesh of who you need to limit yourself to.
Without it, a reminder every now and again, the perspective is lost. To wonder is not the act of being lost in life, it is about preventing life from shrinking around you. Time is so precious and gets lost so quick, waiting till tomorrow to go forth and live is too late.
It is up to you to make it happen. To constantly put yourself in the presence of giants.
Pickup your phone for a second and open which ever photo app you use on it. Look at the pictures you've sent or received from your various interactions with others in your digital places and spaces. Break it up into things you received this week, last week, last month, six months ago to a year ago. Look at the "forest for the trees" of what your pictures say about the life your are having at the moment, and if the story it tells have changed over the past.
Happy, awesome, good, thank you, amazing, great, value, trust, correct.
If you say it often enough it becomes a part of you.
A few weeks ago I had lunch with one of my secret mentors. If you are wondering why the word secret, let me explain. I have this handful of people who I get the privilege of spending time with about once or twice a year. They are all extremely busy individuals who in the normal course of their day would in no way find time to mentor anyone.
If you follow this blog at all, it should be no surprise to you that I went through a period I like to think now was my "recovering asshole" phase in life. It is frightening how easy it would have been to permanently move in.
For some time now, every time I've woke there was a single thought which drives my day and interaction with other. That we all wake up in the morning wanting nothing more than to just have a good day. I know I do, so it must be that others do too.
For some time I had one rule when it came to races, and that is never to re-enter the same event more than once. There is too much on offer to redo and relive the same things over and over. I have however of late been breaking this rule on a grand scale. On a completely subconscious level, I've been backtracking into the past. I've found myself returning to things I've already completed without a clear idea of why I'm repeating them. Even a race I always referred to privately as "the event not to be mentioned" will be making a second appearance at some point in the future. The result of which I see now is interesting and unexpected.
This is a page I though I would never get to write in my life, ever. I woke today, with a clear mind and happy heart. Why and how you might ask? I would like to say my life has made a turnaround since I started on what ever this road is a few years ago.